lost at work
last few weeks have been a whirlwind. I really like the people at the new job, I actually feel seen and wanted here, but I am completely lost. I am not used to working this way and I always struggle when given really big projects that require a lot of research because I learn better by doing than extrapolating context. but still I prevail. 💪
to make it even more nerve-wracking they moved me to a new team and want me to prepare to lead it later in the year, which is a good thing for me in terms of self-preservation, but it's responsibility and added pressure I could do without.
on the other hand, I have been going to Porto more often now. which is a double-edged sword: I love the city and I am meeting great people and new places, but on the other hand it makes it coming back home so much harder. I want to continue going as much as I can though, it is weird how homely it feels getting lost there.